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Tuesday, 01 December 2009

  • i caught you like a disease.

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    i just caught you like a disease.
    it's terminal and i'm going down,
    but you're a fate that's worth than death
    and i gotta get out of this mess.

    i heard a distant early warning
    but i chose to ignore it.
    it came back and bit me.
    seems like we're victims of bad timing
    cause you wanted more than i did.
    i can't give you what you need.

    it's the final meltdown,
    i want out now.
    i wish i would've known to doubt you;
    i'm better off alone without you.

    it's the same old story,
    love gets gory.

    why'd we have to go and change things?
    now touching you is a strange thing.

    i got so caught up in the moment
    that i forgot what it all meant.
    but still i'd do it all again.

    so go on, say what you want to say
    and save me from this misery.

    i've been there and done that.
    we'll never run back.

    with the stunning lack of words and imagination,
    you've made this outrageous.

    you can try all you want,
    you can beg, you can plead.
    you can blame it on me
    when you're starting to bleed.
    but the clothes on my back
    are all i need to change about me.

Monday, 30 November 2009

  • i'm just a flavor you crave on instinct.

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    passing into empty space
    and finding what still remains.
    finally.

    i'm planting falling stars
    and counting days till we can glow.
    i've carved a place for myself
    and filled it up to overflow.

    how long have i've been letting this go on?
    cause i can't take it .
    where did we go wrong?

    there's only so much you could say
    for the choices that you made.
    how are you to change
    when excuses stay the same.

    and all i have
    is what i've given to you.
    and you took it for granted.

    there's nothing else that you could do.
    there's nothing left for me to prove.
    how can i believe you
    when you never tell the truth?

    and i know in the end
    you'll be alone.
    it's not my fault.
    it's not my fault.

    all tangled close
    beneath these sheets.
    if these walls could speak,
    what are you hiding from me?

    but i think that i'm just a flavor
    you crave on instinct.

    i've been so wrong so many times.
    let's be realistic,
    i'm only a statistic to you.
    and it hurts so deep inside.
    maybe i'm sadistic,
    i can't get myself off of you.

Sunday, 29 November 2009

  • we're tied tightly at the seams.

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    and you speak,
    but every word you say was empty.
    and you rehearse this over and over.

    something is terribly wrong.
    i've got my body tied up,
    between my tongue.
    and at this point
    we've all grown speechless.

    something is pulling at these strings,
    tied tightly tearing at the seams.

    what a mess you've become,
    you're not fooling anyone.
    you're turning your back on
    the family you love.
    you're not fooling anyone.

    you got this all wrong,
    you're not the same person
    you were when i was young.
    and at this point,
    i feel so useless.

    we can torch this house
    or change our names.
    or burn these pictures in their frames,
    but the memories won't change,
    they will never change.

    and i keep running faster
    from this place that i once knew.
    they seem to hold me back
    from all i've been,
    from all i've been through.

    things aren't always what they seem to be,
    you'll never see it coming
    when you're always running away.

    and i'll always remember
    that night where i found myself
    two steps away
    from losing it all.

    doubting the look on my face
    in an attempt to replace anything.

Saturday, 28 November 2009

  • you're coming into focus and that's okay.

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    so this is how its gonna go.
    i'm drawing the line
    straight down the middle.
    stories were fabricated;
    you said that you were in love.
    oh no, that was never enough.

    honestly,
    my conscience has a way with words
    and i'll tell the truth.
    even though i know
    how much it hurts.

    and it's nights like these
    when it's so hard to keep
    the friends that you hold close,
    when they're lying through your teeth.

    where do i begin?
    i have so much to say.
    should we stay afloat this ship,
    the shore's so far away.
    can the wind carry us back
    to where we need to be?
    yeah, i'll travel the world around and over
    until you're here with me.

    we'll put our trust
    in the hands of eachother.
    i'll show you how to live and love,
    it's just enough for me.

    we've been through so much
    in such little time.
    i feel like every night i spend with you
    is the rest of my life.
    we've both had broken hearts,
    yeah, we've both had our days.
    if we let this slip away,
    it'd be the greatest mistake.

    you're coming into focus
    and that's okay.
    these sails are strong enough
    to hold us both.
    don't be afraid.

    and you scream
    but never loud enough to reach me.

    i've got to know
    do you feel like letting go?

    and you've been walking backwards
    for far too long.
    you're blinded by the person you've become.

     

Wednesday, 25 November 2009

  • and it's the steps that we erase only.

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    cold, dark day
    creep down the hallway.
    these pictures are defining
    and they're haunting me,
    they're taunting me.

    you said that you would be there,
    but you never did show.
    this is not like you,
    this is not like you.

    and all that remains
    is the color of his eyes.

    i know that you are here
    each and everyday.
    each and everytime i feel
    as though my heart will break.

    and it's the steps that we erase only.
    only the nightmares that we used to create,
    let it pour over me.

    and it's getting old
    with this awful feeling.
    when you're waiting for
    everything to fall apart.

    and it's hard to feel
    when everyone's got something
    to prove you wrong.

    no looking back now,
    we have the king by his crown.
    let's do this right now,
    while we only have one life to live.

    something's are better left unsaid.
    but i've been here dying
    to get it off my chest.
    the pressure digs deep,
    so i've been here holding secrets
    i can't keep.

    my past is catching up with me.
    i forgot how it felt
    to be living out the life of someone else.

Sunday, 08 November 2009

  • seasons change and i doubt my age.

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    i'm sleeping through nightmares,
    awake in dreams i've never had.

    i give you my heart,
    here's my soul.
    here is anything.
    well, i lost control.

    sober up and feel the sun,
    deny the things i know i've done.

    i'm sorry for the things
    that i've said for the way that i am.
    i hope its not too late.
    i'm sorry for the things
    that i hide,
    all my pain that's inside.
    i hope its not too late.

    seasons change and i doubt my age.

    i just got the call
    and it's time to go.

    i've given everything
    for someone else's war.
    tell me what we're fighting for.

    believe me, i told you so,
    i've been dying to change you.
    but we both know,
    you won't.

    the classic mistakes
    we force ourselves to make,
    it's just the lie that we're living.

    i'll pretend you never happened.
    i wish that we weren't so different.

     

Monday, 02 November 2009

  • i'm getting back the things you'll never have.

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    and all the days i live my life,
    and all the day i've grew,
    i'm just a sad soul
    waiting for the world to let me in.

    i listen for the sound of peace
    but it's nowhere to be found.

    i'm getting back the things you'll never have.

    sometimes i sit and ponder
    of all the fucked up things in my life.
    can't make them go away
    and i'm afraid.

    i could care less,
    i'm not impressed.
    cause all your smiles are the same.

    you may be strong way down in life
    but when the night is young,
    the strong resolve to fight.

    so i write tonight,
    to tell you about the things i can't explain.
    and i wave goodbye,
    i'm not standing by
    to let you take control.

    we carry questions through the night
    when all the answers are denied.

    and when they all surround me,
    i will not fall to my knees.

    free me, cause i'm alone.
    tell me i'm coming home.
    bright lights and ten fold lies
    and truth you see won't save my life.

     

Saturday, 31 October 2009

  • we lost our ways again, back to the end.

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    oh, there's a world without you.

    you put me together,
    then trashed me for pleasure.
    you used me again and again.
    abused me, confused me.

    you thought the worst is over,
    but the worst is yet to come.
    so don't leave me while i'm here,
    you won't forget me while i'm gone.

    we lost our ways again,
    back to the end.

    a better place awaits me without you.
    sometimes we walk alone
    right back to what we know.

    baby, i'm comg home,
    don't ask me where i've been.
    this road has been so long,
    sometimes i feel i can't go on.

    i miss you babe,
    and i want to know
    just if you'll stay to take me home.

    and every time i go,
    i say the same damn thing.

    i got one more reason
    i'm up too late.
    i got a hotel fever
    and i can't wait.

    don't you know you're on your own
    and where you go is up to you?
    you better find yourself a home.

Friday, 30 October 2009

  • i'll show you what i have seen.

    i strive to speak
    what i have learned
    and learn from those i see.
    to step out of this life is my ambition,
    to speak out
    and show you what i have seen.

    i am one voice amidst the shouts of many.
    i cry for those without a voice,
    for those who don't know
    that they have a choice.

    be my strength to tear away this blindness
    that makes us unable to see
    what is standing beside us.

    i'll be your strength,
    follow my lead.
    i will show you what it is to love,
    what it means to care.
    how to end this war.

    for you cannot love one
    until you have learned to love all.

    there's a wonder of the world
    in these letters.
    and i'll have you know i'm searching.
    still searching...

    i am just everyone i've ever met
    and the reason why wars are fought.
    i've sent my envy over seas
    to dark alleys and abandoned streets.
    to seep through to unprotected eyes,
    to harden hearts, to make the cold.

    we've scuplted ourselves into machines,
    we've shaped our love into greed.

    we will mend statues
    from the ground to the skies.

    you told me my darling
    without me, you're nothing.
    you taught me to look in your eyes
    and fed me your sweet lies.

Wednesday, 28 October 2009

  • we're cast away.

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    we were designed for more
    in an image not our own.
    but we've fallen short.

    i'm quite speechless
    and was quite unaware
    of what the capabilities
    of a weak heart are.

    we're cast away.

    it'll run through the back of your head
    until you regain control again.
    the sleep lost on these thoughts
    wasn't worth the time.

    this year of you
    held near or not at all.
    it wasn't worth the wait.

    it's just not worth it to stay in this state.
    it's just not worth it to keep it.
    it's just not worth it to let it go.

    i believe in a better condition,
    in one that i have yet to attain.
    i believe in a better love,
    in one that has yet to change.

    conversation, conversation.
    ours are never.
    you are ever so convincing,
    they'll get better.

    this is the most passion
    you will ever see.
    my heart is breaking
    for and with you.

    but after all of what's between,
    you still chose yourself over me.
    my heart hurts and my heart breaks.
    no one belong here,
    not here where we leave our hearts.
    the illusion for your weakened love.

     

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